Well... Shit

Well, what can I say?  Apart from it has been TOO FUCKING LONG SINCE I DID ONE OF THESE!!! 
So, what has happened in that time? 
Well nothing on sizeism, don't think that will change till the cunts who are being cunts have a problem that makes them all fat. Am wishing hard on that one sorry lmao  
The biggest thing with me is I have recently survived a pretty big car crash  I was in the car with Stu (the mister). It was a Smart FourTwo if anyone asks. We were out on our normal shopping trip pulling away from some road works and getting up to the road speed. That was 40mph (know the road was 40, we could have been more than 35, could have been less. I know it was about 30 when I last looked at the speedo just before the accident, am paranoid about this shit so I look regularly and tell him off if he is over the limit), think we were about 35mph when the car suddenly veered to the right so much we were looking at the houses on the opposite side of the road. Stu tried to correct it pretty suddenly and the back end hit a raised curb for a bus stop. As it hit and run up the curb the car rolled over  So we got out safely, through the roof of the car  Aye it was one of the glass roof cars. We got an uncomfortable ride to hospital all strapped up in neck braces and on the proper back supports and got to find out the extent of the injuries. Stu came out with a cut on the back of his hand, a few bruises and a couple of bumps to the head with some whiplash. I come out the worst, Lots of cuts and scrapes, a couple I've had to remove glass from  Lots of bruises, to the point you could trace the line of the seatbelt  A few bumps on the head and a massive gash on my head, so big it needed stitches  I've never needed stitches before  It was so fucking scary 
But we are here though, here to bitch about it I suppose is the main thing!
It happened on the 7th Feb and we are still dealing with it. I think we will be dealing with this for quite some time. One thing that keeps running through our heads is hiw the hell did we come out of it with as few injuries as we did??  A testiment to modern car design I think  
Was some owies I came away with. I think my hand looked like it came through a meat grinder -

Was not fun  It was the first day of Stu's 4 day weekend and we where gonna paint some Games Workshop goodies but I couldn't even hold a brush for a while after this 
We did have a lot of problems with this car before this but mechanics have gone over the car and it looks like it was a blow out. There was nothing mechanically wrong with the car at the time but one of the tires was flat and almost off the rim  well... shit... am glad this didn't happen at motorway speeds  The insurance has now paid up and we have been looking for a new car. Oh what nightmare fun that has been 
We've looked at a lot of different cars and looked at the insurance prices and all have been pretty evil with Stu having this on his record now >.< But for the price range we were looking at we found a Jag for less insurance than a lot of cars we where looking at  A lovely Jag X-Type diesel. We looked at loads of stuff before this. We didn't wanna go that small a car again and wanted something we could take the dogs out with us. The kinda space we wanted we ended up looking at diesel estate cars. we fell on this AWESOME Jag! We have a Jag... OMFG we have a Jag  If ya can't tell, we are petrol heads (though this is diesel but fuck off I want fuel economy and not go hippy). Owning a Jag is a big deal to us  Yes it is the diesel estatate Jag but fuck it we have a Jag  It has had a damn good running since we got it too while its still under its warrenty from the garage we got it from and it runs like a total dream  WE WILL make sure we get our moneys worth and it is perfect before the warrenty runs out  Never been more happy tp have CCTV up in the house so I can keep a high res camera recording any activity around the car all the time  I blame morons for us having to do that but fuck it I get to watch the car all the time now hehe 
It is soooo pretty 

I think Stu is well over the moon with his newest ride hehe 
Apart from this there hasn't been much up with me apart from the usual dealings with cunts who think they are my doctors telling me how unhealthy I am cos am fat  If I had a fiver for every time I heard shit like that I would be rich. Yesh I know you all have concerns about people who are overweight but as a fat cunt myself can I say one thing? 
SHUT THE FUCK UP UNLESS YOU HAVE PROFESSIONAL TRAINING IN MEDICINE! IF YOU ARE NOT A  FUCKING DOCTOR YOU DON'T KNOW HOW HEALTHY EVEN THIN PEOPLE ARE!!!!!! 
I think that has been needed said  One thing health wise I am pissed about is I can't work out like I normally do since I have whiplash and my physio wont let me do nothing but light excercises till she thinks I can so more. I think I can but I did push it and did me worse hurt 
Well... back to Skyrim now I have finally got it and am now addicted  I know I have had a head injury, I bought a fucking Xbox! lmao 

A Size is Just a Size, Not a Person

I am actually getting sick of shit that is segregating the different sizes of people. I am so sick of shit like - ‘This is attractive cos…. or this is nasty cos…. fat is unhealthy cos…. Thin is healthy cos…' Well I will be polite here… "FUCK THE FUCK OFF FUCKING CUNTS!” You may not be attracted to big men or women, well fair doos. If you like your woman average, thin, skinny, athletic or bony then awesome! Just don't point out your dislike of anyone else! Or you are just sad really. The same goes for those who like big women. Please will you top saying shit like ‘who wants a bag of bones?' or ' REAL WOMEN HAVE CURVES!' Well fuck you, REAL WOMEN HAVE EVERYTHING! They are fat, they are thin, they are tall, they are short, they are muscle bound, they are weedy, the are average, they are beyond average.
 REAL WOMEN ARE EVERY WOMAN! 
 One thing is that we all are attracted to different things so get the fuck over that fact. One thing that annoys me the most is that people use your size as an indicator to how healthy you are. and What you eat. ‘Oh you fatty must be unhealthy! Get off the McDonalds all day!' Erm, are you my doctor? I'm sorry but am pretty healthy, the docs are very happy with my health and I work out daily for at least an hour, more if I have time. I eat fresh fruit and veg where I can, I would every day if I could afford that since I prefer to prepare meals from scratch with fresh ingredients. I don't like fast food, I don't like cake, I don't like most the shit that is used as an insult to what I am supposed to be eating :/ I know there is skinny folks who eat like fuck but gain nothing and are being abused for being ‘too thin' :/ I bet there is many, many more women who can relate to both of these scenarios :/ Not everyone falls under one category. Can we please get over this shit now and let people see the beauty they want to see and shut the fuck up when we don't like what we see!

I don't know why I am surprised anymore....

Yet again it has been far too long since I have done a blog  I really should try to do this once a week but am just lazy when it comes to thinking of things to write in it   So what has been happening in the world of Ven since last time?Really nowt much  I haven't finished my Space Marines yet, I just haven’t been in the mood to paint. It’s a shame really, I have a Rhino, a assault squad and a tactical squad to paint up   Really should get my ass into gear and get them bloody painted so this Blood Angel can get out there and kick some Chaos ass   I have been playing Space Marine online a lot lately. Nothing more satisfying than hearing 'WAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH!' *SPLATT!!* as I decimate orks with my Thunderhammer  *girly giggles*
Is it possible to have too much fun killing bad guys? Hmmmmmmm  NAAAHHHH!! 
I have my ticket for this year’s Gamesday,

I'm not excited. I swear... *WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!*nerdgasims*  I'm thinking of entering something into the Golden Demon awards. Never know how well I may do    Am working on it so there is no photos of what am doing up yet.

I have been doing other little odds and ends with the alternative modeling. I can't believe am getting into doing something like that but it has been a giggle and a half and I have met some awesome people through it  The last thing we did was a few of us be extras in a video that was involving runners at a stadium. Naturally we were part of the crowd but in a very funny way. They had all the alternatives sat in the stands, far away from everyone else but still in the shot and we were not cheering. Just sat there like a little cloud of darkness in the stands. I pointed out the fact we looked like the stereotypical Goths in some kinda high school movie and we sat there laughing our asses off about it   It was fucking brilliant  I been using this opportunity to do some photography myself. I still don't have my SLR but the camera am using is pretty good. Saved up a little and got me a new camera... Canon Ven has bought.. *DUN DUN DUUUUUUUUH!!* A Nikon   Its just one of them Coolpix ones but it’s got a awesome lens on it. Here are the pics I did that day-

It was an awesome day    there is a photo of me but it’s not going up  Am waiting on the other photographers stuff to see if they made me look better than I did lmao. I'm looking to do more photoshoots with alternative models so keep an eye out for more piccys at some point 

So, what else? Oh yeah before the video shoot my computer broke... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!! It was hell without it  I was using a laptop while one was getting built for me, pretty good one just with spare bits though. My last computer was like that and it only broke because my dog managed to knock it over   I've set up the new one so that can't happen again but... this fucker has broke too  good look through it and a talk with some tech nerds have pointed to a possible dead power pack so am gonna replace that and hope for the best   I think I will take a hammer to it if it doesn't work  

Not much to say apart from elaborating on the blogs title...
Well, I have been dealing with the usual attacks on my size-
*random cunt: OMG you are soooo FAT!!
Me: Well done, your powers of observation rival that of Sherlock
random cunt: why don't you just put the fork down FATTY!!
Me: I would but it is embedded in the skull of the last person who was a cunt to me*

If you want to insult me for my size I'll give ya a couple of bits of advice-
1. I'm hard to insult. Infact I take the piss out of myself so save yourself the time

2. If you feel you must insult me, please be original. I've heard all that crap before and it makes me yawn. At least try At least try to make me laugh 

3. ....that's it really 

really; fat bashing is getting old and boring. The same tired, old, lame insults coming out of the mouths of people who are too dim to realize how unoriginal they actually are  bet I eat less and exercise more than these cunts do anyways  

Another thing that surprised me is the attitude towards mental health issues. Was having a conversation in a chat room with someone that seemed pretty cool then it got on to depression and such so I started talking about mine. Here is what blew me away (I haven't used their name or online ID)-Person: have you tried not having anxiety and not being depressed?Me: I wish it was that fucking easy  Person: Oh I have this friend, she is going through the same thing but gets all ratty when am not understandingPerson: you know wat I meen? (Their spellings)Me: well not saying 'have you tried not having anxiety and not being depressed?' may be a fucking start... you fucking cunt *logs off before I get banned from that room because of excessive use of curses*

Hmmmmm. If I had of been sober I may have articulated the argument a little better but I was drunk and seething especially when they started saying that they didn't really believed mental health problems exist   Though as suggested by the title of the blog I don't know why I'm surprised with people anymore  There is some right fucktards out there and as I always say... Too many fucktards, not enough bullets  

Well.. I think I have bored you enough  I can see that vacant expression you have  I will sign off with a 

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!